I've been through a lot of deep thinking the whole yesterday, and I was a bit relieved afterwards.
So, today I decided to take a look at this thread, and I was astounded to realize that this thread's not yet closed. I opened it, and was really shocked to see the heart-warming supports from all of you. I really don't know what to say, but the words "Thank you very much" ought to come out from my mouth. I really appreciate your attention, your sympathy, your tolerance, and all, even if you don't know me that much. I wasn't really planning to leave this place nor the editor. I'm just off to take care of real-life business, which might take lots of time.
But I realize that I've made a grave mistake. I shouldn't have made this thread in the first place, or at least shouldn't have mentioned that religious statement about my relationship with God. Better yet, I should have acted wiser and never tell the truth about me being a Muslim. If I hadn't done those things, Jatayu here wouldn't have the reason to bring up what he have stated in his post.
Honestly, I really don't want to discuss about the topic right now. I have much more problems to take care of to be involving myself into a religion debate, because that will take almost forever.
However, Jatayu, I've got some words for you. You've successfully bought my ticket out of here by talking that off. You insulted my God, my beliefs, and my guidance. Even more, you did it all so soundly, using your most honest words no matter how rude they sounded, instead of just being sarcastic about it. You clearly shown your hatred towards Islam and Allah by putting those statements up in front of the whole community. It is certain that you're trying to send a warning message to everyone here, convincing them to "open their eyes" and see the "truth".
I appreciate you trying to get me questioning my own religion, but sorry, you failed. I've seen and heard something like that numerous times in my life. I spent my 3 years of senior high school in a somewhat-secluded boarding school, learning deeper about this so-called imperialistic ideology, and I believe I know better than those skeptical believers. Many people in the world translate the verses in the Qur'an incompletely, reading a verse without reading from start to finish. Thus, they created a grave misunderstanding and confusions about Islam's teachings, like Jihad, the Eid Al-Adha, and numerous activities taught by the Prophet Muhammad. This leads people to start having ridiculous thoughts. The condition keeps getting worse with a lot of pretenders that disguise themselves as ex-Muslims and spread their false stories about Islam, the terrorisms done by some enraged extremists who act first and think second, and so on. The world views Islam as a sole enemy, so they'll do anything to bring us down, if not showering us with endless slaughters.
There are millions of people like you out there, so I can't blame you for having such thoughts. One thing I can't tolerate is to hear my God and my Prophet being insulted. But I guess I should thank you for reminding me that I'd better be leaving this place. I'm alone here, and everyone views me as an enemy, as a threat. There are many better places and situations than that.
I'm not mad towards you, but I do expect a word of apology, if you're even willing.
I'm sorry this thread has gone way too far. Mods, do your thing and close this before it gets worse.
[This message has been edited by Andanu T (edited 12-21-2007 @ 05:56 PM).]